Idle visions

Some people never bring awareness to the visions they see when their eyes are closed. When I shut my eyes and reduce sensory input or when I’m in total darkness, my pupils dilate. In the absence of light, there is still plenty of visual action. My visions are replaced by something similar to a computer screensaver. I don’t see a uniformly black image but rather faint images that change dynamically. The images resemble a changing aquarelle painted predominantly in gray. I may see ‘glow-in-the-dark’ specks of light moving around, different geometric shapes, flashes, traces of colors, and other ‘special effects.’ That is my idle vision.

Even while totally preventing light from my eyeballs, my eyes continue to send signals to my brain. The brain needs some sort of light contrast to perceive black. It’s as if I have an inner source of faint light, keeping my eye sensors active and functional. My ‘inner camera’ continues to record blank clips.

The visions I see in my dreams are displayed on the same ‘screen,’ which displays my idle vision in the absence of light. For now, we don’t really understand the deep meaning of our dreams; they are still a mystery. Likewise, we have no profound understanding of how to interpret the faint visions seen when we close our eyes. Nevertheless, I may get some indications from these images, just as I can from my dreams.

Factors that impact my idle vision:

• Last image I look at before cutting off light sources.
• The light that passes through my eyelids when closing my eyes.
• Coughing, sneezing, or other abrupt exhalations.
• Emotions and thoughts.
• Different conscious-breathing choices.

Possible indications of the images:

• Pulsating or throbbing areas on the ‘screen.’
• Visions intensity.
• Transition tempo.
• Symmetry and shapes.
• Irregular images.
• Spots of non-grayscale colors on the image.

The idle visions on my ‘screensaver’ may indicate my emotional and physical state, which relates to my breathing. For example, an indication that I’m not relaxed is a pulsating area on my ‘screensaver.’

After getting acquainted with my idle vision, I managed to spot more subtle indications. For example, I often see spirals in my idle vision when I hyperventilate.